If you’re on Instagram, or part of personal development circles, you’ve probably heard about the ‘need to show up’ and if you’ve been following my work, you’ve probably heard me speak those words as well.

Because you do.

Earth is undergoing a major shift and it is our gifts and abilities that are creating the new systems we’ll live in. Systems and ways of being that can’t be birthed if we don’t first share our authentic selves with this world.

But as motivating as ‘showing up’ and ‘the world needs what you’ve got!’ can sound, speaking up and being who we really are isn’t always easy for healers and creatives because for centuries, “being ourselves” was not safe. For centuries, being ourselves meant burnt at the stake. (Witch trials.) And though this memory is unconscious, it keeps so many of us from leaving the spiritual closet and sharing ourselves. We want to follow our path and we want to share our work with those we are here to help but we feel held back because part of us remembers the last time we did and that part has vowed to never again feel what she felt the day she was killed off.

This fear is known as the persecution wound and it’s a wound that sits in our collective bones (and more specifically, the throat chakra of us as individuals) and because I’ve had to face and re-face it with my work, I wanted to write a post outlining the signs you might carry it too. Because your work to show up might require a bit more than a few motivational quotes, and if it does, I want you to know you aren’t alone in what you’re experiencing or going through.

When it feels too much, remember it’s your presence on
this planet that lifts us up.

When it feels too much, remember you are more than enough.
Because without you, we can’t be us.

A planet remembering love.

When it feels too much, trust.
Things have a way of working out.

When it feels too much, know you aren’t alone.
You arrived with a team of guides to help you walk this planet home.

When it feels too much, rest your heart.

Ours beat in gratitude for your willingness to not give up.

I was on Pinterest the other day and noticed a quote with my name on it circulating the platform. I didn’t recognize it and thought perhaps someone created it based on a piece of my content. Turns out, I DID make it but forgot about it because it was from one of my first posts. Seeing it threw me down a tunnel of nostalgia and remembering all the feelings I felt when I decided to take a risk on myself and start writing on this blog I now call the diary.

At the time I had just graduated from social work, excited to have the degree and to be part of such an admiral profession, but also deeply aware that being a traditional social worker wasn’t my purpose. I’ve known since I was an infant that I came here with a mission - and a 9 to 5 didn’t feel like it. In fact, a 9 to 5 felt conflicting. Limiting. And not what I was here to be doing. So on the prompting of an ex boyfriend I started writing.

And though he was wonderful in getting me started, I don’t give him all the credit.

Because getting to this point took overcoming so many limiting beliefs that were deeply programmed into my psyche. Beliefs I had to show up to fight against each and every day for the first few months of showing up for my purpose. And since I know another wave of healers and creatives are now being prompted to show up, I want to share three of the biggest myths incase you too are struggling.

If you’ve been following my journey, you know I’ve known I’ve had a purpose since I was an infant.

A mission.

Something I was here to be doing.

And I was deeply depressed until I started living it, because it is who I am, and it is why I am here on this planet.

And not living it created a void in me that nothing filled - until I started speaking.

Teaching.

Sharing the skills I’ve learned that help make being an empath a good thing.

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Anyone who knows they are here for a reason knows that reason sits in your bones and makes you miserable.

It consumes you.

Sometimes slowly;

a slow leak;

where one day you realize you’ve been drowning.

For others, it’s more sudden.

A breakup causes a breakthrough, or something else shifts you.

And you realize you can’t keep living the way you were.

Where do I start? It’s been months! Two to be exact. And then a month between posts before that.

As someone with a bio that reads ‘I write for empaths’ I haven’t been doing my job. And for the first time I’ve been okay with that because my spirit knew I needed time inside my own heart.

I needed space to figure things out.

Because this work is hard.

And when you’re making moves in front of an audience it’s really easy to turn what you do into an art. A performance. And as lovely as it is to perform, I never want to be someone who puts on a show. I’m here to be real. I get nauseous if I can’t be myself.

So I stepped back to make sure the life I was building was a life that I want.

Making the decision to take this space (and my worth) seriously by integrating more of a Masculine side of me over the past few months has changed more than just the amount of income I make. I enjoy the money because I enjoy being free, but making a profit is so much more than money. The amount of focus, learning and self-honesty that had to happen to generate the income I am currently making is why my life is feeling beautiful these days. I set a goal and I reached it because I had the courage to unlearn what was taught to me and learn new skills to align with something more truthful in terms of who I am and what I want this world to be.

To answer your second question:

I don't feel overwhelmed because I came back to this space strategically. I created boundaries for everything. Going as far as taking wifi out of my apartment so I couldn't work from home. I needed a clear boundary between the world I share with the world and the world I keep for me. I also set boundaries in relation to who could and could not email me. I answer client e-mails and e-mails through the diary's Self-Care Community and if I don't get to all of them right away because I'm out enjoying my life, that's okay.

I'm not shy about saying I came here with something important to do. I've known it since I can remember. A feeling in my bones that I couldn't verbalize. I didn't know what it was, I just knew I was made for something specific and that I was on a timeline. In fact — this knowing is what initially brought me into the world of energy. The very first intuitive I ever met looked me in the eyes and said, "you know you came into this lifetime with work to do, you knew they needed help down here and you agreed to come back" and it brought chills because I DID know and it was the first time I felt safe acknowledging my inner call rather than pushing it aside in fear of my ego.

Being intentional about aligning with our life purpose is magical. It's also really important for shifting the nature of this world. Aligning with our purpose creates change; change in the lives of the people we are meant to meet through our purpose and change in the energetic frequency of this earth as a whole. But it isn't all breezy. The shift, the move, the change in vibration that comes with aligning with your purpose can feel uncomfortable. It can also create loss and loss feels unfair. If you're going through the confusion and the loss or you're just ready to start aligning with the purpose you know you are here to live, this post is for you.

Guys! Meet: Cornelia Grimsmo, a stunning Norwegian Vlogger who knows a thing or two about beauty. And no, I'm not talking external beauty. I'm talking inner beauty. The type of beauty that can only be found when you follow your heart, work hard for your goals, and have the courage to share your authentic self with the world. I stumbled across Cornelia's YouTube channel by accident. 

Incase ya didn't know, I believe everything and everyone is connected, and that spirit uses other people to deliver messages and nudge us into situations that lead us to our purpose, help us grow, and push us along the path we came here to travel. When someone suggests I watch a video, read a book, or attend an event, I take it as an assignment from spirit, a divine redirection of sorts.