A New Way of Being
"I am opening to a new way of being.
One that flows and knows her desires are becoming.
One that sees beyond her current limitations and knows nothing is too much to ask for. One that knows all that is waiting for her. One that loves contrast and polarity because it shows her where to aim her arrow. One that holds strong in her focus, in her wanting, not in fear of not having, but instead in expectancy and true knowing. One that expects the best because she has witnessed the best and knows more is coming.
One who knows that this life is good.
That this life is beautiful.
That in every moment she is growing."
The past few months have been months of radical transformation.
The things I could only dream last December are manifesting. It's surreal. Eerie, really. Especially as I sit here in the library I sat in often when life felt overwhelming... and I felt defeated in my mission.
If you've taken any of my more recent workshops I've spoken openly about how the end of 2017 was difficult on me. I had a vision for who I wanted to be and big plans for what this space might be, but gave my power away to fate and forgot my duty to co-create my reality. I understood the Law of Attraction... and even wrote a book on the theories of manifestation, but theory is just theory without application.
So I crashed and burned; physically, mentally, emotionally, financially.
In a very public way.
It was embarrassing, yet common for us Healers/Feelers/Empaths/Intuitive Beings.
Because we are so driven to create freedom based lives and fulfill our purpose that we abandon conventionality and dive headfirst into service, armed only with the theory of what it takes to create a happy reality... forgetting that success requires we face reality.
We forget that living your purpose is so much more than waking up happy everyday...
And want to jump past the parts that make it tricky.
Like the messy conversations that happen as you learn to set and enforce boundaries... and the rejection you receive by those who don't get you and those you love immensely.
We forget that giving from an empty cup is less about how much we love others and more about the lack of love we have for ourselves.
That being authentic is real and important, but requires strategy when navigating a world that isn't awake or ready.
That self-accountability is required to let go of the past, mend our power leaks and catch ourselves in victim-thinking so we don't misinterpret lessons as obstacles or project our wounding onto those put on our path to move us deeper into calling.
We forget that we don't know everything, and that there is purpose in everything... especially the seemingly small, tedious tasks that have less to do with changing the planet and more to do with living on this planet. Like eating, sleeping and paying for things.
That challenging our flow state, our scatteredness, our lack of clarity is a necessity of showing up consistently. Because inspiration just plants seeds that discipline nurtures into being.
That not talking about the hardships that come with chasing dreams is harmful to those we are serving.
And this burns us and makes it hard to keep going.
Since returning to my site in late January I've launched a popular journalling course, had to shut down my coaching because I was overbooked, partnered with an Aromatherapist and self-funded an essential oil line, hired two business coaches, brought on help with social media and fell in love with sales, strategy and the creativity that comes with being an entrepreneur. And over the next two months I'll be travelling to Glastonbury, England (Avalon!) to reconnect with my ancient past and meet with a group of soul-sisters, spending extra time in Scotland with my soulmate Stacia, rebranding my work with the help of an incredible graphic designer and launching an eBook in collaboration with my favourite healers.
Life has changed drastically; but only because I decided to change things.
Not externally, but within me.
Things changed because I realized I couldn't keep avoiding reality.
That I couldn't keep blaming other people or fate or society.
Things changed because I took control, command, and decided that my mission was important and that I would face myself and change what needed changing.
Because things weren't working, no matter how much I was wishing they could be.
It's not all wonderful.
And I want to be clear on that, because finding and living your purpose has become a cliche and there are many out there endorsing a dream and dying behind the scenes, and that's not healthy... not for those endorsing and not for those following.
Living out your calling is really challenging.
Things are good and I'm flourishing... but somedays I wish I could hide under a rock and not be an open target to those in need of healing.
That I could be less serious about this path I'm paving.
That I could carry those who aren't up-levelling alongside me, rather than be strict in my boundaries about who I can and cannot serve with my energy.
That I could have more space for friends and family.
That I could buy myself new things and not reinvest everything in my vision.
That I could know what it feels like to be normal; to follow the paths those around me are following. Jobs, marriage, babies. And not be out here on the leading edge of the future we're creating.
That I could just enjoy life and not get bulldozed by the lessons I'm learning to teach this community.
That I could be a twenty-something and not feel such responsibility for a demographic with such heavy needs.
That I didn't have to worry about my safety.
That I wasn't so deeply committed to something others can't see.
Yet, I'm thankful.
In awe of my spirit for choosing this path and in awe of the less conscious part of me for being open to the journey.
It hasn't been easy and it won't be, that's reality, but I'm honoured to wake up and work towards something that seems to be impacting many. Especially when that work is challenging and it involves facing the more stubborn parts of me.
Today marks the start of the Solstice energy.
It's a check-in point.
A moment to take inventory on what still requires Mastery.
A time to celebrate our accomplishments but remain humble to what needs fine-tuning. An opportunity to say, "this isn't working" and open ourselves up to a new way of being.
For many of you reading, this inventory will involve the Masculine Energy.
The parts of you that are still resisting reality.
That parts of you that are stubborn to what living your purpose really means.
The parts of you forgetting that being an Intuitive/Healer/Feeler/Empath is only one part of your journey and that changes are required for you to step into who your spirit is wanting you to be.
And if so, I invite you to a workshop I'm leading on June 30th.
We are going to talk BOTH sides of manifesting; the popular Feminine side of setting intentions and working with energy and the less known Masculine side of what it takes to stay committed to your goals and take action on the things you're dreaming.
I'll be walking you through the manifestation process (start to finish) and sharing just how easy the Law of Attraction can be by sharing how I've adapted my personal practice to fit my needs as an Intuitive being...so when you look back at this moment at the December solstice, you too will have a list of accomplishments you're proud of achieving.
THE WORKSHOP WILL COVER:
the simple trick to deciding what you want when you can see 100 sides of everything
how to communicate a clear intention to the non-physical (what angels/guides to call on and how to work with your Higher Self/ves)
the six types of intuition and how to use your personal intuitive style to know how to take inspired action and feel confident in the action you're taking (once you know your intuitive style and how to use it to manifest you’re literally unstoppable)
what you need to be doing while an intention germinates (how to let go of control and not freak out when waiting for what you want to manifest, especially if you are under a strict time frame!)
the one small thing I do every morning to stay committed to my dreams/desires and keep energy in my favour throughout the rest of the day
my best tips for handling contrast and polarity and not getting thrown off track by the lessons that show up after you decide to up-level your reality... because lessons are part of manifesting happy things!
You'll understand the process of manifestation plus the technicalities that knock most of us Empaths off our path so you are no longer overrun by them.
Plus so much more! Including a workbook to keep you accountable and the sneaky strategies I use to control my subconscious and maintain my energy when things don't go my way or I stop feeling motivated to keep going.
The workshop will be $15.00 and free for all those who have already showed commitment to this work by enrolling in the Empowered Empath Journalling Course or my Twin Flame Coaching. Just use the code I'll email you to gain access!
2018 is an 11 year, a year of integration where we begin to balance out the duality we are living in. Its energies can be tough, but sometimes that's most loving.
Hope to see you on the 30th!
Here's the link to secure your place in the training.
The workshop will be e-mailed out on June 30th, but all who purchase it will be able to access it until September 1st, 2018. The workbook included can be downloaded for lifetime access.
If $15.00 is out of your price range, I've created a short training on the intuitive styles and will be sending it out through e-mail for free. Watch for it! It will help you connect with your guidance to know/hear/feel/see what you need to be doing to call in that money!
The price of the workshop will be increasing.